Happy?

So this time of year is always tough for me since my Nana died. I get to thinking about her and miss her all the more.

Lately though with what has happened with the job, the car and some other things not worth mentioning I feel like I would like to take my life, turn it over like a salt shaker and see where the pieces fall. I hate this funk I am in and wish to God I knew how to make a positive change.

Today

I am again at a loss for the way life is turning out. I don’t know how to make a change or even where to begin. I just know a change needs to be made.

OOOHHH so happy to be alive

So I am back after a hiatus. Life has not been kind to me lately. My favorite expression of late is “I am sick of being life’s toilet”. That means I am sick of being shit on. I have never been one to believe in karma or anything like that but by God I need a karma overhaul. I think I am a good person and good things so why the crap? Is it possible to turn ones life/karma/mo-jo around so that it is positive? I swear I go through days on end looking for one good thing to happen to/for me and I get nothing. I know that there are people worse off than me and I should be thankful for the gifts I do have in my life, but I need something good to happen.

Excellent!

So the third car that I have had since March died last week. I bought it in July and the engine blew. I don’t have a clue what to do. The deeper the rutt!

Tired and sick

Of late, I have felt like I am surviving instead of living. The job takes a great toll on me because of the lack of satisfaction in the work. Not to mention the fact that I have had my third car die on me in the past 6 months. I want to live!!! I want to wake up happy!!! I want to smile!!! I am in the deepest rut and have no idea how to climb out.

Weekend

So I went to see my friends in New Jersey this past weekend. I am not sure which is harder, not seeing them for 9 years or seeing them and not knowing when I will see them again. Nevertheless, it was a great weekend and I had alot of fun. I certainly hope it isn’t 9 years before I see them again.

Off

So I am off to New Jersey today to see friends that I haven’t seen in 9 or 10 years. To say I am excited would be downplaying. I am not thrilled with the drive though. I hate to drive! I had to say good bye to Jake this mornign which was sad. I have never been away from him for more than a day or so since he was born. I haven’t been away from Patti for a stretch this long in years. Sad to say but I go nowhere without the family.

Begin

Ok so I am new to this blogging. I hope to stay faithful and add to it daily. I guess we will see.

To begin let’s say out loud ” Dustin Pedroia for MVP”.